HEALIING. These two people are very different. You could argue that the lighting is very different, so it makes the contrast between the two pics a bit weaker. Aah, but you see, I remember exactly how I felt when I took the 2nd photo, in 2019. And let me tell you, no photo could capture the depths of physical despair that I was feeling. I felt like my light was fading. And I felt that no matter what I did, no matter how many times I threw myself up against the brick wall of healing strategies, it just got worse. I had no control over this decline. I would have small periods, a day or two here and there, where I would believe I was turning the corner, only to end up lower and lower, dimmer and dimmer than before. My eternal optimism that I would get better, was gone. I had reached the bottom of the barrel.